Meditation

I don't like meditation. Well, not in the traditional sense, anyway. Have you ever closed your eyes and saw the infinite recursions of the Mandelbrot set just zooming by? Isn't that just relaxing? I'll even link a video of the Mandelbrot set below, just so you can experience the true mathematical beauty of it. Now, I know what you're thinking. Math? Beauty? What does that have to do with meditation? Well, you see, the mathematics is shown in brilliant colours, and not the dull, boring number style that you're probably used to. Anyway, I've gotten this to happen with guided meditation a few times... until my class started TUZA.
What is TUZA? It's a breathing exercise that gets you to focus on your breathing. Unfortunately, when I attempt to focus on my breathing, I forget how to breathe. Thus, this is how I instinctively suffocate myself during meditation. Yay! You know, everyone else in my class feels calm, peaceful, sometimes even tired. But I feel, well, anxious, self-conscious, and sometimes even light-headed. It is absolute torture.
All hope is not lost, however. I often find menial tasks such as washing the dishes or yelling philosophy into the streets extremely calming. Actually, ever since I started volunteering at my school's library, I have become more halcyon. Seeing the books disappear from the cart in alphabetical order, and watching the Dewey Decimal System in action is extremely soothing.

Mandelbrot set zoom: https://youtu.be/pCpLWbHVNhk

Passenger Pigeons

One of my favourite birds is the passenger pigeon. I have absolutely no clue why, I just like the shape of the passenger pigeon. Its nomadic nature makes it quite interesting, and the preserved specimens look astonishing! Too bad they're all extinct.

Welcome!

Hi! My name is Julian Yen, and I think about random things. I'm not really special, a lot of people think about things, and a lot of people have things to say. This is the companion to the Cup of Sprites podcast that will be released soon, as soon as I can get the intro sequence working. Here, I will just talk about random things and give updates to things happening on my Youtube channel, that I don't feel comfortable posting there. This includes opinionated pieces, retrospectives, poetry, and a bit more. Stick around if you want to. Or don't. I don't care.